Don’t worry! Even though, I’m as confused as you are!
Sex during marriage seemed more like a chore.
It seemed like I was obligated to submit to the same repetitive, selfish, over indulgence from the same man two to three times a week. Those were his standards. I, on the other hand, have a different idea of sex.
Sex to me, is supposed to be spontaneous, exciting, adventurous and an exploration of the senses, for all parties involved. Whether it is a couple, threesome or a wild night with many new friends, it should always at least be an adventure. Once I was married, I could predict every movement and motion. Every word that would be whispered and every minute of it. Sex becoming a boring chore.
I tried to spice it up. I thought it was my fault the sex was dull and disasterous in my mind. Porn, some mild S&M, feathers, lotions, potions, lingerie, even the oppourtunity for a threesome and my married sex life was still dead. Since I have seperated, things have been very different.
Sex is an exploration again. Not knowing when or where it may happen or even when you are ”booking an appointment” for it. It has become a thrill again. Some men are one night stands waiting to happen and some come back begging for more. Some are waiters and some are jumpers. For whatever reason it floors me how different the men I have been with are.
It baffles me completely how things have changed. Or maybe it was just me? When did the conversation start as “How did your day go?” or “Wasn’t the weather nice today?” turn to “Do you swallow?” all in a matter of 10 minutes?
Anyways, I have had and I am having some interesting affairs and thrills and oh yes, even a few chills lately and decided to share them with you along with my dissection of men’s minds and what makes them tick.
Care to join me? I hate to travel alone.
